Intoductions

I'm Brii. I am 20, weeks from 21. Married for almost 2 years now. I am a typical 20 year old. Not quite a full adult but no longer an odd teenager. I am still very insecure, i am still awkward around people, i am still trying to find my place in this world. I am a fat, short, mexican, white washed, person. My default radio station is country. I am into some geeky things. I don't fit in with my mexican family because i'm not mexican enough, i don't fit in with my white friends because i'm not white. My spanish kinda sucks and it scares me to death that my children won't speak spanish because i'm losing mine. I cant remember the last time my husband and i slept together at the same time. I cant remember the last time i felt good about myself. I can't remember the last time my husband and i made love. I can't remember the last time i felt like we were happy. I can't remember the last time we didn't fight. I can't remember who i am. I used to have friends, i used to party, i used to drink, smoke and have fun. I used to talk to everyone on a daily basis, i always had something to do, somewhere to go, someone to see. but now all i do is sleep, eat, clean and work. I see mu husband for 4 hours a day like once a week, other than that, he is asleep when i get home from work or something else happens. WHO AM I?!?! thats my question......